It struck me this week. An epiphany, if I may. We were NEVER meant to have the full funds for this adoption right up front! Never. Ever!
Does this scare the living daylights out of us???? YEP! But most importantly, we have had to really dig into our faith in God. We have had to battle things together in our marriage about what is important to us, how we view our lives, what we want as a family, where our priorities lie, etc. Deep, deep stuff.
We have also had to reeeeeaaaallllllyyyyy come out of our comfort zone and talk to people about a very personal aspect in our lives and that is MONEY!
If we didn't have to fundraise and discuss various methods to funding this adoption, weprobablywouldn't be able to reach out and talk about God's desire for people to reach out and HELP THE OPPRESSED (whether a widow, orphan, poor, needy, etc).
We are learning as we go. I have already had a couple of people tell me that if it was them going through this adoption they would have thrown in the towel already. Truthfully, there are days that I want to. Boy, do I ever.
It's frustrating.
I wasn't comfortable publishing it at the time I wrote it. I saved it for another day. Today, a year later, I went back and read it again, knowing it was there and the knowing the reason for today's post. I think the reason I didn't post this a year ago was because of the peace I felt after this "epiphany". This peace of putting God in complete control of our financial stresses that came with adoption. It was humbling, to say the least, and amazing to see who God used to support the adoption (both financially and other ways) and how they were used. People whom we would have never expected to support us did and people whom we thought had the same ideals challenged us. It was eye opening.
So why am I posting today? Take a look at our fundraiser thermometer... God has provided the funds for this adoption. Through hard work and generous gifts we are fully funded for the next and hopefully final portion of the fees. It is sitting in our adoption account waiting for the final payments to be made.
Right now we are waiting for a court date in BG to make Little Miss our daughter! Please pray this comes quickly. It's been two months since we held our baby. I knew we would have to wait. Please pray that we have an amazing judge. Please pray for our facilitators/lawyers that are working on our behalf. We are so close, yet so far from bringing home our little one.
Thank you to everyone who is walking this journey with us. Thank you for the prayers and the encouragement. Thank you for the donations and the funds. Thank you again to the people who helped with the fundraiser at church last Christmas. Thank you to the people who organized and attended our poker tournament fundraiser last year. Thank you to the people who babysat for us. Thank you to the people who drive our kids when we are unable. Thank you to the people who listen to be freak out on them (ha ha). There is so much for us to be thankful for. Little Miss has a wonderful support system here!
